Disassociate Songtext
von Ekoh

You said that you would be here by my side and I believed it
Told you if you leave then I′ll be fine, like I don't need you
Built a life without you, then you left it all in pieces
Now it′s gettin' hard to do the normal things like sleep and eat
And even though I got a heart, it's barely beatin′ in my chest
Never trade it for moment back before we even met
And tell myself with what I′m knowin' now
I should′ve never let you be a crutch
For all the trauma manufactured in my head
And I'm back home now but I′ve been gone for three weeks
I don't even talk to the ones I like
Got a voice in my head, just a bit too high
Tellin′ me I'll never get shit right
It's like, if the pressure gettin′ too much to take, I disassociate
Lookin′ at the actions I make, it's just a role to play
Try to be the person you want, but I can′t hold the weight
Carve a smile right in my face, I'll let you hold the blade


And you pull me under
I can feel you in me
Do you ever wonder
If I′m done

I'm walking in the storm but there′s nothing left to find
Yeah a broken heart doesn't hurt when you die
Hard to move ahead when you're stuck in your eyes
Keep on looking beyond, beyond, beyond
But everybody′s gone and there′s nothin' left to say
You can be the last in my line of mistakes
Tell me if we did what we said, we would change
What would life be like, be like, be like, be like, be like
(What would life be like)
(What would life be like)
(What would life be like)


You said that you would be here by my side and I believed it
Told you if you leave then I′ll be fine, like I don't need you
Try to prove it right, but you just left me all in pieces
Now it′s getting hard to do the normal shit, like even breathin'
And even though I got a heart, it′s barely beatin' in my chest
And I don't think you even gave a chance to see my best
When you don′t know yourself, you find it′s normal feelin' less
And that′s a narrative you built upon the comfort and the stress
What I hope to be, therapists and friends tryin' to open me
Look at me, unhappy, like it′s something that I chose to be
Counting on a fairy tale story that you sold to me
Took me finally being alone to see

That I can't count on anyone that I love
And you act proud, that′s the way that you know
You come back 'round, and I trust you again
I'ma back down, at the hole in my chest (yeah)

And you pull me under
I can feel you in me
Do you ever wonder
If I′m done

I′m walking in the storm but there's nothing left to find
Yeah a broken heart doesn′t hurt when you die
Hard to move ahead when you're stuck in your eyes
Keep on looking beyond, beyond, beyond
But everybody′s gone and there's nothin′ left to say
You can be the last in my line of mistakes
Tell me if we did what we said, we would change
What would life be like, be like, be like, be like, be like
(What would life be like)
(What would life be like)
(What would life be like)
(be like, be like, be like, be like)
(be like, be like, be like, be like)