i tried to kill myself two days ago and no one noticed Songtext
von wings for myself

I tried to kill myself two days ago
I′ve never been more alone
Waking up everything is the hardest thing imaginable
Getting up, dragging myself out of bed
Starting my day, feels like an endless torture I can't escape

Every time I look in the mirror
I get tears in my eyes
And I want to scratch my face
I hate the sight of myself
I harbor a deep, ugly, and painful hatred towards myself
And I can′t get rid of it


I don't go outside anymore
Unless I absolutely have to
I have no desire for this feeling to end
I'd be too uncomfortable
Living a life where I′m happy and satisfied with myself
′Cause I know that it'll never happen

There′s no place for happiness in this world
This is a sad and miserable world
That only knows pain and hurt
I don't desire to feel happy and satisfied
In a place that is devoid of that

I am misunderstood
I am nothing more than a weirdo to people
I am insecure and anxious
That′s all that people ever see in me
Everywhere I go, I don't feel at home
And I feel like everyone wants me dead

So even if I live a life of misery
I hope I one day get accepted for being myself
But I don′t think it'll ever happen
I will always feel this way