Memoirs Songtext
von This Is Hell

Frustrated by failure
Failure to communicate
I just want to give up
Throw in the towel
Let it all slip away
Let everything become a filthy burden
I wonder why
I′m so disgusted by my waning passion
And my embrace for doubt
Retrospect brings regret
But for now I'm shutting it all out
Just this faith
Nothing less
To be filled with self-loathing and doubt
This burden of the stigmas and voices killing me
Because retrospect brings regret
From now on I′m shutting it all out
I guess I'll laugh when I die just trying
Knowing that the seeds that I'm fertilizing
End up growing disarray and dynamic spaces


I′m just living because I reach for the spot of crushing memories
Making sure I′ve got them
And if not, then I'll take them from my fucking friends
Retrospect brings regret
But for now I′m shutting it all out
Just this faith
Nothing less
To be filled with self-loathing and doubt
This burden of the stigmas and voices killing me
Because retrospect brings regret
From now on I'm shutting it all out
I′ve given all I can and I can't give anymore
Been screaming "fuck" for so long my throat is bloody and raw
And letting it slip away is something that I thought I′d never do
Looking back at the photograph I see the difference was in my eyes
I must have lost something along the way
Using that anger to drive
My eyes are open to reality
I throw asking questions like "why me?"
I'm fucking done having beaten this beat
I wouldn't have it any other way
I wouldn′t have it any other way
No one else will control me
And when I look back I realize the difference was in my eyes
And now that I′ve come to terms with the relentlessness of misery
And recaptured the rest of the fear I used to bear
I feel whole again, whole again in the emptiness
And that is something I will both despise and cherish
With every fiber of my being
Coming to terms with the misery
Coming to terms with the relentlessness
And that is something I will despise
With every fiber of my being
Coming to terms with the misery
Coming to terms with the relentlessness
And that is something I will cherish
With every fiber of my being
Coming to terms with the misery
Coming to terms with the relentlessness
And that is something I will despise
With every fiber of my being
Coming to terms with the misery
Coming to terms with the relentlessness
And that is something I will cherish
And I'll do it without breathing
It′s certain