HOW I'VE BEEN Songtext
von Swindle

Sunday offering, no communion
But we′re breaking our bread
Zip your Super Malt string vest and your 'fro
Heart was never dead
Bigger in your Bimmer
Never give me wave
Set in stone, not your mode
Time will never trade

Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been
Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I've been?
How I′ve been


Yeah, oi, you said you′re gonna call but you never called
Said you would be there, wasn't there at all
Said you′d make it fair, we were playing ball, uh
Said you'd pick me up on any day I fall, trust
I had to pick myself up
I held my head, had to teach myself stuff
How to shave, how to keep my nails cut
How the people in the grave wish they could′ve held us, huh
And now it's something that my mother tells us
Loving don′t fade even when the hell does
You were magic, and yo, I wish you could've held up
To the visions in my head of a father unstuck
Yo, but yo, I guess it's just luck
If a father really cares tryna get a quick nut, oi
But still I call tryna tell him what′s up
Oi, ′cause I could never give it up

Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I've been?
How I′ve been
Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I've been?
How I′ve been


The way mama raised me never felt like daddy missing
Never let me question or mention if daddy distant
Focus on what he did, never what daddy didn't
′Cause for many young boys that's all they get to envision
Listen, the fathers in my house were women
Put their strength inside of me and put their soul in the kitchen
Working the night shift so we ain't skipping on dinners
Always gave me a choice and put my faith in the mission
Well, maybe he was scared, I was scared too
But walking through the fire is something that dads do
If I don′t break the chains, no changing the cycle (Uh)
Now I have the chance, there′s nothing I won't do
Dads saw themselves as providers
Of the type of wealth you only measure in finance
All I ever wanted was some loving reminders
That you still think about me when your soul getting tired

Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been
Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been

Time for the woman, look what the womb done
Made you a father speaking in mother tongue
We keep putting out fire
But if you tell me again, I should smile
I′m your east, I'm your south
I'm your quick to denounce
Wash your mouth when you wish to go where women doubt me
I could be handsome, shit, I feel handsome
Another day in the life of the story
Takes you a daughter to realise our glory
I wish you knew
You′ve always been half of us too

Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been
Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been
Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been
Have you ever wondered?
Did you ever wonder how I′ve been?
How I've been