Truth Songtext
von Sway

I smile a lot but I′m sad nigga
I laugh a lot but I'm mad nigga
I lie about how I′m really feeling
Cause no one care about my truth nigga

Truth is I wanna die
Truth is I don't know why
Truth is I'm scared of life
So I feel more comfortable dying

I saw sex before I started life
I saw sex with my baby eyes
I′ve been touched almost close to rape
Back in 2012 at the age of nine

By eightth grade I was slow as shit
Sipping purple rain no Prince
By nineth grade I caught a couple infections
Even back then I was sick


I laugh at my pain no Kevin Hart
I wish I was but I don′t got a heart
I finished early so I don't gotta start
I wish I could but I don′t got the heart

I smile a lot but I'm sad nigga
I laugh a lot but I′m mad nigga
I lie about how I'm really feeling
Cause no one care about my truth nigga

Truth is I wanna die
Truth is I don′t know why
Truth is I'm scared of life
So I feel more comfortable dying

If mommy listen tell her I'm lying
Cause I don′t want her crying no more
If Johnny listen tell him I′m lying
Cause I don't want him feeling guilty no more

I don′t wanna feel hate no more
I don't wanna feel pain no more
I don′t wanna feel gay no more
But that memory always haunts me


I don't wanna feel life no more
I don′t ever feel right no more
I don't know if I'm gay or straight
Cause that memory always taunts me

If mommy listen
Tell her I′m lying
Cause I don′t want her crying no more
I don't have the heart to tell the woman

Who gave me life I don′t want it no more
I smile a lot but I'm sad nigga
I laugh a lot but I′m mad nigga
I lie about how I'm really feeling

Cause no one care about my truth nigga
Truth is I wanna die
Truth is I don′t know why
Truth is I'm scared of life

So I feel more comfortable dying
Disappointment is the only thing that's consistent in my life
Dick appointments are the only thing that I′m living for at night

Random women and regular shame
Different women but they all feel the same
Random women and regular shame
I keep a list to remember their names

It′s a game and I'm playing for fun
But game′s over every time that I cum
I play again just to get nothing done
I'm addicted to my self destruction

It′s a game and I'm playing for fun
But game′s over every time that I cum
I play again just to get nothing done
I'm addicted to my self destruction

If mommy listen tell her I'm lying
Cause I don′t want her crying no more
I don′t wanna feel shame no more
I don't wanna feel pain no more

I don′t ever feel right no more
I don't wanna feel wrong no more
I don′t ever feel right no more
I think they're better left without me

I smile a lot but I′m sad nigga
I laugh a lot but I'm mad nigga
I lie about how I'm really feeling
Cause no one care about my truth nigga

Truth is I wanna die
Truth is I don′t know why
Truth is I′m scared of life
So I feel more comfortable dying