Not The First Time Songtext
von Ricin

Fuck
I′m stuck in my bedroom, or at least I hope it's mine
Cant move, Cant see, think I′m going blind
As it happens again
As I fear its the end
I remember that it's not the first time

I can feel you coming closer
I feel you tugging on my sheets
And as my heart starts beating faster
I realize that it's not a dream

It starts as a stain on the ceiling
A shade of blood-red
It slowly drips down onto my head


Still warm from the victim
If there ever really was one
I can′t explain it
I just keep bathing
Silent and Complete
Still warm from the victim
If there ever really was one
I can′t explain it
I just keep bathing
Silent and Complete

Fuck
I'm stuck in my bedroom, or at least I hope it′s mine
Cant move, Cant see, think I'm going blind
As it happens again
As I fear its the end
I remember that it′s not the first time
It's not the first time
I can′t explain it
I just keep bathing
I can't explain it
I just keep bathing

Just trying to find some kind of worthless purpose
So in time, I can feel alive again
Smoke a doob or two, or maybe nine or ten
Cuz every now and then, I pretend
That I don't need it but then I remember
Everything that you said
Like "FUCKYOU" and then the moment was dead
I guess that what I get for living life inside my head


Fuck
I′m stuck in my bedroom, or at least I hope it′s mine
Cant move, Cant see, think I'm going blind
As it happens again
As I fear its the end
I remember that it′s not the first time
It's not the first time
I can′t explain it
I just keep bathing
I can't explain it
I just keep bathing