20mg Songtext
von Revnoir

I try to stay calm, focus on my breath
It′s like I drown in a sea of sand
Everything's black, everything′s cold
A second is a new thought for me

Life I won't miss, two pills I will take
Three hours of bliss, four more I'm in hell
Five days I′m asleep, six that I′m insane
I don't wanna feel the pain

I have a fear for livin′
'Cause I don′t wanna be a fuckin' mess
I relive in my nightmares
′Cause it's the only way I can rest

I'm not okay, I′m not the same
My head′s screamin' but I′m standin' still
Trapped in a lie that′s made of drugs
I pray inside, someone breaks my sleep


My ocean's made of dust
And I′ve been dyin' here of thirst
It's like I′m divin′ in the mud
Every time I try to reach for the worst

Tell me I should live, tell me I should care
Tell me I should move, but I don't feel safe here
This is end time out of my bed
It′s like I'm tryna ride an avalanche

If time is the key, then I locked myself into my own black hole
You are not a savior if you′re tellin' me it′s just a phase
You're a motherfucker if you're tellin′ me it′s just a phase
Now you need to fuckin' hear me now
No one, no one will bring me down
Merde j′sais pas où j'me réveille
J′suis peut-être encore dans un mauvais rêve, rêve noir
Le silence est une violence saine, j'suis devenu sourd
J′suis devenu soûl d'mes peines
Seul dans la nuit et 20 milli'
J′perds pied dans une eau sombre qui m′entraîne vers Lucifer, l'enfer

I′m not okay, I'm not the same
My head′s screamin' but I′m standin' still
Trapped in a lie that's made of drugs
I pray inside, pray


That I′m not alone, that you realize
Sometimes a word could save a life
I′m not okay, I'm not the same

The night is young and yet so bright
At last, I′m saved, my heart is light
A smile designed for my peace of mind
I loved you for not givin' up on mine