Memories Songtext
von RAEM

Listen Some walls don′t just hold a house up
They hold memories
Ones you can't patch over

I remember nights I ain′t feel safe at home
Heart beat fast every time you'd come
Footsteps heavy I already knew
It was only a matter of time fore you

Start trippin start yellin losin control
Whole house tense I'm bracin my soul
A child shouldn′t have to live like that
But that was my normal livin in combat

You′d run up on me like I was a threat
Ain't no love in your eyes just anger and stress
And I ain′t understand it I was just a kid
Tryna make sense of the pain you give

And it cut deep deeper than you know
When the man that raised you feel like a foe
I learned real young how to shut down
Turn pain into silence don't make a sound


There′s scars in the wall you can still see the pain
Even if you paint it it don't fade away
All that hurt you carried still lives in your soul
You was just a child now you carry it grown

You don′t trust love you don't trust a hand
Cause the one that was yours made you understand
Sometimes blood don't mean that it′s safe
Sometimes home is the darkest place

You put your hands on me slammed me through the wall
Left a hole in the house left a crack in my heart
I can still hear it echo in my brain
Drywall breakin me holdin in pain

And yeah you pulled guns on me too
Lookin at your son like you ain′t even knew
Who I was or what I needed from you
Just fear in the room I ain't know what to do

I ain′t cry I just stood there froze
That's the moment somethin in me closed
That′s the moment I stopped feelin love
Started buildin walls started hardenin up


Now I carry anger I can't explain
Tryna break free but I feel them chains
Cause when your foundation built on pain
It follow you even when life change

There′s scars in the wall you can still see the pain
Even if you paint it it don't fade away
All that hurt you carried still lives in your soul
You was just a child now you carry it grown

You don't trust love you don′t trust a hand
Cause the one that was yours made you understand
Sometimes blood don′t mean that it's safe
Sometimes home is the darkest place

Now I′m grown but it still sit with me
Every broken piece every memory
I be tryin not to turn into you
Fightin demons I ain't even choose

I got kids now I move different
Swear to God they gon feel a difference
No fear in they eyes when I walk in the room
No trauma attached to the love I give em

But it′s hard when that anger rise
When that past come flashin through my mind
I take a breath I step outside
Tell myself you ain't him don′t cross that line

I ain't never get an apology
Just memories
And holes in walls
That I still see in me

I forgive you
But I ain't forget what it did to me

There′s scars in the wall scars in me
You can still see the pain
Even if you paint it I still feel it
It don′t fade away

All that hurt you carried still lives in your soul
You was just a child now you carry it grown

You don't trust love you don′t trust a hand
Cause the one that was yours made you understand

Sometimes blood don't mean that it′s safe
Sometimes home
Was the darkest place

Yeah
I'm breakin the cycle
Even if it break me first