Mind Trip Songtext
von Problematic

I don′t think you really understand
What this does for me
You know
Everyone has their story to tell
Well, I'm here to tell mine
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Let′s take a trip in my mind, so you can see what it's like
I've been dancin′ with the devil, seems he′s always in sight
I've been fightin′ with depression, nearly, my whole life
Will this nightmare ever end? Karma finding me, right?

I've been jottin′ down my thoughts, only way I can cope
I don't think you understand what this does, for my soul
If it wasn′t for this music, I would prob'ly be dead
So, much anger stored inside, only right, that I vent

Now, I'm speakin′ it clear, I ain′t no puppet, my friend
Think you gonna walk all over me, and say sorry, again
I had to cut the negativity, we all wanna eat
But, you don't have the drive or hunger, to be huntin′, with me


You don't like what I do? That′s cool, there is the door
If you're supportin′ the vision, then you should tune in for more
I ain't the type to be quiet, aye, understand, I'm not perfect
But, I am here to change lives, and barely scratchin′ the surface

I′m only 23, I got my whole life, ahead of me
I picture bright lights, sold out crowds, right in front of me
How dare you try to take, what you ain't helped me to get?
I put my all into you, now, I ain′t trustin' no bitch

You′ve gotta stay strong, remain calm, when the hope's lost
You dang wrong, I′ma blow up, like some napalm
Goin' crazy, tryna figure where my mind's gone
My misery has blessed a lot of people
Oh lord!

I was reading fan mail, and I came across
One, that really stood out, makin′ tears drop
He said, "Thank you, for the song, on depression"
"Made me realize that givin′ up, ain't somethin′ worth doin'"


"Lost my job, my fiance, and the baby is growin′"
"Inside of her, and I cant even, seem to recover"
"Wakin' up is gettin′ harder, question, why am I breathing?"
"First Christmas that I'll be alone, I don't wanna suffer"
"I can′t lie, at that moment, I was gonna end it all"
"Put the knife up to my throat, and suddenly, I stopped"
"Your song started playin′, and it gave a change of thought"
"Plus, my son gon' need a father, he can′t have it, if I'm gone"

Now, imagine someone sayin′, you're the reason, they′re alive
I just don't know how to handle it, a feelin', can′t describe
If I did go into detail, it would leave you, terrified
A part of me is driven, but the other half collides

My scars run deep, won′t pretend that I am happy
I'm in my own world, feel nobody understand me
I′m lookin' to the sky, askin′ God for a sign
Like, I thought this was the plan, but I feel like I'm dyin′

They build you up, just to tear you down
Don't wanna see you win, want you buried, in the ground
But, I'm always gon′ work, like I got somethin′ to prove
If you believe in you, there's no way that you can lose

I lay in bed, starin′ at the ceilin', overthinkin′
I'm so delusional, can never seem to dose off
Anxiety is spikin′ through the roof, once again
I started drinkin', I thought that would make the pain stop

But, I was wrong, just another empty bottle
Such a bitter pill to swallow
When the one that you love most is gone
And, don't know where to follow
In the end, I′m still lost
With my notepad, and pen, and my dark thoughts
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