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von Maya J'an

Thought I′d feel more real with happy pills
Didn't feel nothing
Swallowed all my words without a chase
Now they′re gone
I don't know where to point
Who to start blaming
Stopped the numbing
Sat inside the pain

I'm positively absolutely losing my shit
Will I always feel like this?
Crying before 6am
Ok my inner child is fucking wild
But she′s just a kid
Don′t wanna sound like a bitch to her
When she asks if we're ok


It all depends
If I wake up slowly and let the light in
It all depends
I do my makeup twice or it perfectly blends
All this suspense
When the answer has been under my skin
Starting again
Feels like the end but it all depends

All the pride I tried to spin it round
Tip of my finger
I can feel it crashing to the ground
Thought I′d find some peace inside the quiet
But echoes linger
All this time I've tried to drown it out

I′m positively absolutely losing my grip
Will I always feel like this?
Crying after 6pm
Ok my inner child is fucking wild
But she's just a kid
Don′t wanna sound like a bitch to her
When she asks if we're okay


It all depends
If I wake up slowly and let the light in
It all depends
I do my makeup twice or it perfectly blends
All this suspense
When the answer has been under my skin
Starting again
Feels like the end but it all depends

I look at death like
Being carried to my bedroom as a sleeping child
Tired of sleeping on cyanide
Over yesterday's feelings
Yesterday′s feelings
Yesterday′s feelings
I probably should live my fucking life

It all depends
If I wake up slowly and let the light in
It all depends
I do my makeup twice or it perfectly blends
All this suspense
When the answer has been under my skin
Starting again
Feels like the end but it all depends