Walls Built From Scars Songtext
von LethalCulture

Yeah
I don′t let people close no more
Not 'cause I wanna be cold
It′s just
Every time I let 'em in
They tear me apart

Used to dream of love, now I dream of peace
But peace don't come when your soul don′t sleep
I′ve been hurt so deep, it re-wired my brain
Now I push away anyone who stays
I learned love ain't real, just words and lies
Smiles that hide eyes behind the guys
I used to open up, now I lock it tight
′Cause trust turned love into fight or flight


Got flashbacks to my father's rage
And a stepdad who saw me as a stage
A place to project all his broken parts
Now I flinch when people say "take hard"
I can′t love right, I know that's true
You hold me close, I run from you
I ain′t cold, I'm just self-defense
You see a wall, I see a fence

These walls ain't built for show
They were built from scars you′ll never know
I lock my pain where no one sees
′Cause trust just feels like a disease
I wanted love but I got war
So I don't reach out anymore
If you get close, I′ll shut you down
It's hard to heal when you′re still broke now

You say not everyone's the same, but that′s easy to say
When you ain't felt shame, when your mom worked three jobs
No sleep while you prayed upstairs at the floor wouldn't creak
Yeah, I′ve been touched when I ain′t wanna be
Too young to speak, too scared to scream
Family hands did more than bruise
Now I walk with trauma in my shoes


Then love hit me like a loaded gun
Gave her my soul, she gave me nothin'
Two kids, two lies, and one goodbye
Now I′m tryna unlearn how to cry
Another one left when I got locked
Took the keys the house and block
Now I sleep in silence, fight with ghosts
Fall for women I don't trust close

These walls ain′t built for show
They were built from scars you'll never know
I lock my pain where no one see′s
'Cause trust just feels like a disease
I wanted love but I got war
So I don't reach out anymore
If you get close, I′ll shut you down
It′s hard to heal when you're still broke now

I see red flags in every soul
Even the good ones, even the whole
I hate that I compare the new to the past
But that′s what happens when nothing lasts
So I ghost people before they ghost me
I rather be alone than broken piece by piece
If you love me, don't get too near
I′m not who I was, I'm who survived the fear

These walls ain′t built for show
They're made from pain I'll never show
You see strength but I feel weak
You see calm, I hear my demons speak
I wanted love but I got pain
So now I don′t trust a damn thing
If you get close, I′ll push you out
I ain't safe to love right now

Yeah
I built these walls to stay alive
But now they just keep love outside
Don′t hate me for how I cope
I'm just tryna learn to hope again