Learning My Limits Songtext
von Lavender Decline

Radio silence, you never give the time of day
I can′t confide in you, it's a heady price I pay
Kill me with the memory, barely even know my name
You′re not making sense to me, come back when you want to change

I can't bear this cross every day of my sad life
And when I cross the bridge over to the great divine
I'll remember you fondly, even with the baggage there
My words have fallen on deaf ears, even though I always cared

Guide me through all of the vines that got tangled up
I feel like we can still shine without making love
Learning my limits, l′ll keep my restraint from us
Summertime hit me so hard, I felt my color rust

I′m sorry for the way I was, I didn't know what to do
When I find my drive, oftentimes I hit a wall or two
When I get back home, I can′t promise that l'll speak to you
I just hope you know that I′m fine and I will get there soon


Times it took to circle back to what it was before I lacked
The confidence to tell you things that deeply scar my very being
I say this all to say I'm lost again, and it′s a pricey cost
To turn around and act the way they want me to, but it's not me

They see outright, the real me doesn't show upfront, I know you love it
In a while, I′ll be okay, but that day will not come today
Tomorrow isn′t promised, so I'll do the things I always wanted
Sit, recite a lonely sonnet, then repeat it all tomorrow

Problems that aren′t forward facing plague me 'til my dying day
And it′s a curse that l've been breathing since that cold December evening
In 2005, that night that I had made my grand arrival
Everyone was happy, smiling, 19 years went by, I′m writhing

Met up with my former self to tell him that I wish him well
And it won't be this way forever, but it gets worse before better
I'm entangled in a loop that I can′t break unless I do
My very best to kill these demons, I′m just grateful I'm still breathing

So I′ll throw up my arms
Keep my distance from you
'Cause that′s where the pain starts
So what else can I do?