blue mountains Songtext
von jade hurst

Its 2am before i call you
I know i always make you wait
Forgot to listen to that song you sent me
Now you don′t even care

Been a weird couple months
Didn't expect how we′d end up
Hopeful text, shit response
Chaos every time we talk

You were here, but i was gone
Never meant to do you wrong
Now I'm standing in the dark
Will you keep the lights on?

Homesick when i look at old pictures
Heartache i cant do much about
I pray one day i'll make it back there
This drive is good enough for now


I miss those Massachusetts sunsets
Tho i prefer the trees out west
I always feel so anhedonic
But i still try my fucking best

I missed your heart when i took aim
Intentions good, hurt still the same
You tell me not to say your name
You say that it holds too much pain

You tell me i fucked up again
Far from the first time if we′re frank
I only meant to hold your hand
My tears are filling up the frame

That sits empty on the countertop
I can′t tell myself to stop
Pacing around the room we used to share our lives in

I can't believe myself
The things i say when i lash out
I can′t help but give you hell
But i still know you still miss my stupid face

Homesick when i look at old pictures
Heartache i cant do much about
I pray one day i'll make it back there
This drive is good enough for now


I miss those Massachusetts sunsets
Tho i prefer the trees out west
I always feel so anhedonic
But i still try my fucking best

Feel like i lost all my direction
I scream at myself dont look back
My chest still feels that last incision
Marks all on my skin made to last

Drink full, descending even deeper
I′d drown myself to keep you safe
Only way out is when I'm flying
I′d clip my wings just so you'd stay

Got all this shit weighing on me
Cant go depending on me
I know that you're counting on me
Im sorry im not what you need

Got all this shit weighing on me
Cant go depending on me
I know that you′re counting on me
Im sorry im not what you need
(Im so fucking sorry)

Got all this shit weighing on me
(Weighing on me)
Cant go depending on me
(Depending on me)
I know that you′re counting on me
(Don't go counting on me)
Im sorry im not what you need
(Im not what you need)