Ambition Songtext
von Gavin Castleton

I spent my younger years and then some
Trying to make a name for myself
And only myself
And even though I had more chances
Than I surely deserved
I always felt
Cursed
Or maybe, at least
Forever downstream

I questioned everything and everyone
But I never interrogated
My ambition
My ambition

Ambition,
Where did you come from?
Are you the natural result of a capitalist cult?
Or just a boy′s attempt to get his father's attention?


Are you a bug
or a feature
Or a coping strategy
That I no longer need

Ambition,
What did you take from me?
All of those years that I spent selling T-shirts to friends
I fostered competition over community

Were those connections so deep?
Do they know where I sleep?
Do they care to spend time with my son?
I was so trained on the future, plotting some kind of rise
Left me lonely and anxious
What a waste of my time

I don′t wanna stop dreaming but I want to be awake in that dream
I don't wanna keep believing that my output is the measure of me
I don't want to stop working but I want to work on just being still
I don′t wanna let the world burn down while I watch from a hill

Ambition,
I think I′m done with you
I don't think I′m quite delivered yet
But you've ridden me far enough,
Yeah, I′m traveled-it's true


I wanna be in this moment, I wanna be where I am
I wanna love what I do, I wanna do what I can
And when I start cutting back
All your thorns and your brambles
I find myself naked with only what matters:
Service and awe,
Laughter and wonder
And the love of my son who will know he′s enough

I don't wanna stop dreaming but I want to be awake in that dream
I don't wanna keep believing that my output is the measure of me
I don′t want to stop working but I want to work on just being still
I don′t wanna let the world burn down while I watch from the hill
I don't wanna leave the present but I want to know the future is bright
I don′t wanna live forever but I want to keep this moment alive