Auditory Hallucinations (Experience Nine): Songtext
von Gavi

Okay, I′m back
I'm fine
I′m fine
Really
Sadness isn't something that can consume me
But it is my reality for the moment
Just breathe
Breathe
Ugh!
How could she tell me we had nothing
When clearly something died that night?!
Everything just feels empty
I don't know if that′s the loneliness talking
Or if it′s the seasonal depression again
Or anything else someone could try to diagnose me with
But I do know that it feels like my entire body has pins and needles
A combination of numbness, yet the worst pain
You'd think that I would feel more free Now that everything seems bigger
Cause I don′t have someone taking up all this space in my life
But I can't even get out of bed
And she′s somehow taking up more space than ever
The walls, her clothes, her books, the memories
The space she took up in my life
Are screaming my name in the taunting way
That reminds me that they're here but she′s not
I think about starting a new life
Moving somewhere pretty
Getting rid of my phone and starting from scratch
But maybe I find some sense of peace in holding on to what's left
So our memory doesn't fade into the black hole
That has consumed my heart
So I′m stuck here trying to find her in the mundane and the lifeless
Trying to see if our past is sending me signs from beyond
Or if I′m just creating this false illusion in my head