Suicide Note I Songtext
von Dysmn

Brain on the pavement
And they ask me what my name is
I′m not mentally ill, I'm mentally able
To realize none of this shit still matters
Mother, please tell her I′m sorry
Father, ask him why he never want me
Lover, tell her she's beautiful
God I hope you can forgive me
hundred fifty on the freeway, turn up the music
Hope for some escape that will never come
Hope for a moment of relief

I don't know what′s wrong
I don′t know what's real
I know my heart hurts
I know the pain won′t go away


We have joy and we have misery
Then why do I feel only misery
It is pain to me
The world I breathe
Is it the same for you and me?
There's pain in my head and it won′t go away
Think of the better days
But there were no better days

I can't stop thinking about violence
I hate people
I hate crying
I hate watching the world fall down
I don′t want friends
I want love
Because love is the only thing that has made me feel at all
I want you to be scared of me
To stop testing me
I want the whole world at my feet
I don't trust anyone
I know you either want somethin' or are against me
Or controlling me
I remember everything you said
Everything you have done
The exact tone and that look on your face
Like I am your worst enemy


I don′t know what′s wrong
I don't know what′s real
I know my heart hurts
I know the pain won't go away

We have joy and we have misery
Then why do I feel only misery
It is pain to me
The world I breathe
Is it the same for you and me?
There′s pain in my head and it won't go away
Think of the better days
But there were no better days