special focus Songtext
von DayEXSO

fuck, as i′m listening back to tommy's old music
seen how much i′ve used of it, its in my veins i'm used to it
realise fuck, how old was he at greatest hits
like 17 was just like me
i'm running out of time like igor
but i ignore, i can be myself right
don′t feel like it tonight, making shit don′t feel right
i change so much like the drifters
but all the people around me ain't seeing any difference


they just see the same kid who arrived at 13
twenty one pilots shirt but i was always just a little hurt
picture that, you feel like you just don′t belong
people in your class are giving off the vibe that
you're just wrong
that′s why i am the way i am to this day
that's why its difficult to ever ever find my place
i cover up and i just try to hide my face
guess you could call it a facade without any grace
i′ve been mining at this shit for months
but its like nothin ever really comes the way that i want
might seem selfish but i stumble into things that i want
i need some order in my life, man i need to move on, damn

but i grow every morning that i wake up and don't sleep in
i'm doing great but i don′t know if i be feeling
if my house collapsed, bones cracked on the ceiling, shit
cant compare it to the things that i′ve been dealing with


living with no life
job without a tie
it's just one of those things we can get through without
tired of raising voices i can′t scream and shout
but now i'm doubting my abilities, take a trip to Philippines
keeping shit from me i wanna know, go and spill the beans
but we stay quiet on the mic, i′m a rap machine
release another single in your life it gives you dopamine
caffeine without dreams in your life, sniffing coffee beans
in your dreams, taking the first train to aberdeen
all the things you've seen
makes your mind stuck in halloween
guillotine, when i′m on the pedals wasting gasoline
tangerine, when i'm in the summer seeing unforeseen
things in my life that oughta cut me like a steel knife
things are too extreme, wake me up, is this real life?
put me in a fish tank when I'm swimming with the sea life
living with no jealousy, with a glass of Hennessy
melody on the beat, with the samples in the background
i′ll never just be who i was, i can′t be dragged down
put your ears on and tune in to this new sound
of jazzy rap and drum breaks, it's the best shit around
whatever karma you achieve will always come back round
if it′s good and you're a king, life rewards you with a crown
and if it′s all bad then you'll look like the clown
so don′t be so surprised if we laugh you out of town
uhghhhghghhhhhhh

they call it suburbia
and that word's perfect because it's a combination of the words
suburb and utopia