Rijk Songtext
von Bloed

I am the master of my own solitude
The victim of my own absence
I′ll try to take you with me, soon or later
I build the social construct, manipulator

This is why i don't try anymore
If I don′t jump off the ledge I cannot fall
The effort is mentally exhausting
I didn't like you very much after all

All of these statements feel so hollow
I am that leader I would blindly follow
It's so confusing to decide how I will pretend
I am so tired of myself but I can′t make it end


I′m pulling out the rusted nails that I put in there
The rope gets tighter as I'm looking how far I can go
I choke on the pills as I grasp for air
The blade cuts deeper than I thought it could go

I push the needles in my vein ′til my skin ruptures
It's knowing I′m my own demise that satisfies me
I want you to know that I am the one who suffers
I am the victim that is on display

Fuck

I touch my hands and follow where the creases
Converge and disperse. Narcissistic and forsaken
This is how I fucking made myself
A brittle room built on every disappointment
This is how I fucking faked myself
A facade filled with holes and broken pieces

Fuck you, I'll do it all by myself
Fuck you, I′ll do it all by myself
Fuck you, I'll do it all by myself
Fuck you, I'll do it all by myself


Look at my kingdom